Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Reasons to Be Cheerful

Reasons to Be Cheerful, part 3 (ever hear it?) – can’t remember the band…
1 – The Great PC Crash AND the also problematic replacement laptop!
2 – Little Tumor Cat
3 – Being STUCK – each step is so slow to completion (think uploads on dialup) I never get to the next. Is it the waiting that bores me into changing gears or is it my own inability to FOCUS? Bob says it’s because I care too much, that others just ignore their kids and do what they want. Hmmm, I wonder how they get their kids to ignore them?! Or do they just lock the door?
I never wanted (would be utterly mortified) to be the kind of mother who EXPLODES at the slightest aggravation but I do feel her inside me from time to time. It feels like complete failure – how could a child love a psycho-mom? What happened to my patience anyway? Oh yeah, that’s right, it's sitting at my PC waiting for the bloody sand to hit the bottom of the hourglass! I guess the issue boils down to priorities. When I used to DO all my sewing, knitting and whatnot I didn’t have a PC! Duh! So what now?

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Am I a Stalker??

Okay, here I am, wanting to focus on my kids and they’re suddenly not doing anything new! The Milestone Calendar is starting to look a little monotonous – no, it’s the filling it out I think that is getting a bit monotonous. Still, there will come a point won’t there, when they do stop advancing so dramatically every day. My sick habit of tracking them this way is already so engrained – how am I going to loosen its hold?

--clip from the milestone calendar-- (when I figure out how to post it! please help if you know how to put an .xls doc in a post.)

Perhaps it’s time for me to return to inspecting my own life and the brazen improvements needed there, no? I never really thought about these children of mine as the ultimate diversion, but aren’t they? Wow! I’ve really taken some time off…